The OCD and Her Diabetes Record Keeping Book!

Guest Post by Georgia

So I may have a slight case of OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disease). I have a tendency to plan and over plan things. For an example if I were to create a ‘to-do’ list sometimes (not often in my defence) I would make a list of what I need to put on my ‘to-do’ list.

I know, I’m crazy.

So recently I’ve got into the habit of documenting my daily blood sugar levels, insulin & food intake, as well as monitoring how much water I drink. I started this incentive whilst waiting to purchase the rapid-cal app (from recommendation by my Endocrinologist).

When I get to work in the morning I write down what my blood sugar was in the morning, the time, what I ate and how much insulin I gave. It brings me back to a slightly modified BGL Book.

When I was in high school and got diagnosed I was given a book to document all my BGL levels, carb intake and insulin. At first it helped, because we would bring it back to the doctor for them too look over and make sense of.

As I grew up, the book became tedious and something I would often forget to do. When I left school and the care of the hospital I chose not to keep the book up. I felt as though I was keeping good control over myself and my diabetes so from then on I depended on my brain and BSL & Pump records to work out my life.

This is when things went sour – not necessarily with my levels and care, but it was when monitoring and I mean ’Big Brother’ monitoring started to affect me. No one likes being scrutinized and that’s what I felt happened to me.

My Educator upon arrival would download my life (Blood Sugar Levels from my monitor) and query me on every check, every low, every spike and demand answers. As I mentioned I’m a little OCD – which means I can get paranoid, which results in me testing my sugars maybe a little too much, but hey better safe than sorry and some times when I check I know, that it will be an inaccurate reading because I either just ate or just exercised.

I got made to feel guilty for my checks at 2am . I got made to feel guilty for what level I was when I went to sleep and woke up. No one aside from someone living with diabetes has the right to judge, everyone lives their life differently and everyone with diabetes shouldn’t be placed in one category, every person is different – diabetes or not.

Which brings me to where I am now, I no longer see the Educator and I now have a new Endocrinologist and this time I’m documenting for me and my health.

I am yet to try this new app, but it has come highly recommended and since I am no longer on the pump, my Endocrinologist advised this would be useful for insulin administration.
Maybe my OCD will pay off for the better.

I will keep you posted,
Until next time.
Georgia

3 Comments

  1. helwild on March 18, 2015 at 3:20 pm

    Thanks Georgia! A lovely honest dblog. As the Mum of a T1 daughter myself, I hear what you are saying about the journey to independent self management. Congratulations! You are there.

  2. Danny on March 18, 2015 at 11:21 pm

    Hi Georgia, This happens to me when I go into hospital, interesting that I’m not the only one! Good luck sorting it out. What’s the App please?

  3. Dianne on March 23, 2015 at 11:29 pm

    I can totally relate, Georgia! I’ve had Type 1 for 28 yrs and the Rapid Calc App was amazing for me when I started using it (on basal/bonus pen therapy) in 2011. Lots of fiddling with initial settings but worked very well, but dependent on the user to put in values. Actually adjusts dose for exercise!
    When I started a busier job in 2014 the wheels fell off as was falling asleep without nighttime insulin and forgetting to dose at lunch so had to switch to pump and occasional CGM. For me pump therapy is now better suited but have only been on it for 9 months. My diabetes educator is useful for pump therapy adjustments but I only saw her once in 10 yrs prior to this.
    Sounds like you found the right fit so well done! A good endocrinologist is key!

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